Im just like the person in the song The Escapist by Nightwish. Heres why:

At tech during the show someone dropped a platform on my foot and instead of breaking out in tears I just laughed. Yet when I get home....well not even home just in the car. My mom spent the time arguing with me while I tried to get her to allow me to go the cast party and while she complained how hard tech has been on her and my family. IM THE ONE WHO WORKS HER ASS OFF AND DEALS WITH KIDWELL NOT HER! I cant take it. She puts me down about everything its not fair. I drop my life for her and during this week when i do something that i enjoy and love shes always complaining about being tired. I work at tech from 4-10 all this week and last week so I didnt get dinner a lot. Id call and ask her to drop off food. EVERYTIME she says "No im to tired. You should've made something last night. " its so stupid. If i made something it would just sit in my locker from 7am till i eat and then it would be gross. It sucks. She has me trapped in a suckish reality. She gives me more responsibility then she has. I hate the way it all happens sometimes. I say im to tired sometimes and she just yells at me to get up or threaten me with taking away my cell or something and I have to do it. Its not fair but its life. 

Im sick of all the shit she puts me through but i cant do anything about it. What I hate the most is how she acts like nothing ever happens between us and how I could be all upset she will act like im being selfish. Im locked up in my own home....at least in my head i am, in reality im just......who knows

                     

I hate my brother!!! Yeah I know its old news but still. He has been bossing me around and it's totally stupid. He acts like he owns me and my mom lets him. My life is the worst. Can I just run away? It would make everything so much easier. I have nowhere to go. I want to go away. My brother acts like he owns me, a total ass I know says im his. Why can't I be free im not someone's property. Life sucks!

I hate my brother, I hate my brother, I hate my brother, I hate my brother.

OMG HE'S SUCH AN ASSWHOLE!!!!!!!! He gets on my nervous all the time.  What did I do to deserve this. Why!!??!?!He's such a total loser. He acts sooo selfish and then says that its me not him. When we fight and my mom hears he goes, "come on I dont wanna fight" just so my mom hears him say it and im the one who gets yelled at. Other times he, like today, he acts childish over something stupid and when I agreed with my mom saying he was childish, he turned to me in the car and said "your the childish one, cuz you like your stupid anime stuff." its soooooo hard not to hit him. 

I'm still waiting on getting a laptop which was promised to me for my birthday....TWO YEARS AGO! So my mom sayds she cant afford it right now yet she spends tons on my brother by buying him soooo much shit its not even funny. Today he freaked out over a video game and he was such a brat to her and she still buys it for him!!! It's not fair, its never fair! He's a spoiled brat! 

Ok I went to my friends house and had like  an anime night. We watched a little anime but watched more on the computer and went totally crazy. I've been on like a anime fix for two days now. I'm even more addicted then I used to be ^_^ (if thats possible) But I went crazy with them and we even played with bubbles like 3 year olds....IT WAS SOOO MUCH FUN!! I cant wait till we do it again. Its soooo cool hanging out with them.

My life is weird like always. I do what I can to help my friends and sometimes people like to vent on me. One of my friends confused me like crazy cuz one of the guys I know was totally drunk and he said a lot of stuff that I cant repeat but he actually said he liked me more than a friend. When I found out he was drunk and he laughed about it I felt my heart drop. But what I dont know is.....was it true????whatever i'll figure it out. 

Also I broke up with my boyfriend but he is still in love with me. I dont have any feeling for him anymore but it hurts me that he still cares so much but I cant return the feeling. He really needs to get over me. Hopefully he will and move on with his life. I dont wanna see him hurt anymore.